And when nobody wakes you up in the morning, and when nobody waits for you at night, and when you can do whatever you want. What do you call it, freedom or loneliness?
― Charles Bukowski
Author: Cheney (Page 1 of 17)
I got a new therapist a few weeks ago. I think we just had our third session last night and I can already tell I am going to love working with her, because this is going to be actual work, not just a weekly scheduled bitchfest to a willing (and paid) ear.
She’s giving me skills, she’s giving me suggestions for homework, she’s giving me books to read, all of it. I am here for it.
One thing we talked about yesterday is how I just suddenly quit a few things that I’d loved doing and had been doing for … Read the rest
I just want everything in life to be going okay right now, and all the time, is really what I want.
I feel like lately things have been better in my relationship and at work, and I am enjoying having a new therapist and new goals. I’ve been walking, intentionally on a treadmill. I’ve been NOT eating too much. I’ve been eating grapes by the handful cause they are so fucking delicious.

I started writing something last night, a new fiction story that I haven’t ever tried before, this is the very beginning of it, and it makes me excited, … Read the rest




Last night I had a Stay Toasty by Beer’d, Bobby suggested we make s’mores in the air fryer, so we did, and then I did a lot more writing than I thought I would, which makes me very happy.

I don’t know what to do with myself.
I think that AI has officially killed regular blogs and websites like this one.
No one will ever find me here if they don’t come looking for me. No one will find something that I wrote when they search on Google, because I will never rank high enough to make it into the AI generated answers that now take up the whole top half of the page.
I don’t use social media anymore, like Facebook and Instagram, because I think they’re just toxic places I want no part in, and for a while I dabbled on Bluesky but it just … Read the rest