What makes you feel nostalgic?

It’s a new year tomorrow.

It used to be such a big deal to me, celebrating the new year, but now it doesn’t matter at all, it’s just another day, and a way of marking time.

I’d like tomorrow, my first day of the new year, not to be one of reflection and waxing nostalgic over anything.

I am laser focused on my future and what I am going to do to make it better, and make it on my own.

Life really throws the shit at you sometimes, huh? I didn’t expect that during my nine days of mandatory paid vacation I would break up with my boyfriend, which will completely change my life.

This was supposed to be a relaxing time to reset and recharge and now I’ve gone and remixed and redone everything and who the hell knows what’s going to happen next?

Probably none of us know, we’re all just winging it on this rock flying through space. I personally don’t think we are even meant to know the secrets of the universe. Maybe that’s why they’re still secrets.

But in speaking of the future, and in the spirit of if I say it I might be more likely to actually do it I want to go to church on Sunday. It’s a Unitarian Universalist church, so I might as well say “social justice club” but I really need some new community, and a sense of peace.

Peace of mind was on the top of my Christmas list but that didn’t go as planned.

Maybe if I do something new with my life, like go to a UU and get involved with some things to keep myself busy after work, that might be a good thing. Maybe I’ll join the choir. Maybe I’ll do yoga, who knows?

I am going to keep posting here every day, that’s another thing I plan on doing in 2026.

I’ve made my home.

cheney.me

I’m deleting the Substack that will never grow, and possibly the Medium account that won’t grow either unless I tend to it.

I have enough going on though, right?

Happy New Year to you all, I hope you’re having a safe and enjoyable one. 🙂

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